Hello, Rebels, and welcome back to my life.
So, here’s a true thing. I am not good at stuff.
I don’t mean I’m not good at anything. I think I’m probably a better writer than average. Not close to the best writer in the world, but a little better than the average Joe off the street.
I know I’m a better than average public speaker, which mostly comes from the fact that I’m not afraid of it.
But there are things—a lot of things, you could say—that I’m not good at.
I’m not good at listening. I’ve been realizing that more and more recently. I talk and talk and talk and don’t listen nearly enough.
That’s what this YouTube channel is. Me talking. Rarely listening. I don’t pay attention to what you say often enough. I try to read comments, but I’ve been looking at how I reply to comments, and I usually give an answer that relates back to me.
Sometimes this is good. Sometimes it’s bad. I would rather be overly talkative and self-involved than have crippling self-doubt and insecurity. That’s not fun.
But again—the way I am is better for me, personally, and my attitude toward life, but not as good for the people I interact with, including you.
Another thing I’m not good at is balance and, in a more specific sense, multi-tasking.
I’m no good at doing multiple things at once. I can’t concentrate on more than one thing at a time, and in a broader sense, it’s hard for me to keep multiple goals going on a day-to-day basis.
As an example: on Wednesday I got all involved setting up my new email service. I meant to get back to writing that afternoon. And I never did. My focus got totally wrapped up in email.
And that leads me into the number one thing I’m not good at, which is keeping a schedule.
I’m not good at a schedule. It’s why I keep letting days pass without making YouTube videos.
Now, right now, Hallie is having major computer issues, and isn’t able to work on the videos. BUT, I’ve let that be an excuse for ME not to make the videos, either.
Which is why I’m finally sitting down to make this one, because I didn’t want to let ANOTHER day go by without talking to you.
And I’m really sick of making videos about how I haven’t made videos in a while, and I’m sorry for that.
I’m getting close to the point where I can solve these problems more easily. Where I could just replace Hallie’s computer, for example, without thinking too much about it.
Or have backup systems in place in case something like this goes down, and hire—literally, I would love to do this—a full-time assistant whose only job is to make sure I do what I’m supposed to do when I’m supposed to do it.
And it’s just…I’m really, really lucky that I’m going to be able to do that, because so many people can’t.
And if I didn’t have the support system I already have, I’d be even less productive than I already am, which is not as productive as I need to be. Which sucks.
I had a realization while I was down in Austin. And it’s that a lot of people in my space—YouTubers and authors and whatnot—are doing really important things with their careers.
They’re not just entertaining. They’re actually helping people live better lives. And that’s not something I do enough of.
And I don’t know how, but one day I want to take these lessons I’m learning on my own journey and help other people conquer the same thing.
Because it’s not a lack of motivation or passion. I want to be talking to you like this every day. I really do.
I want to be writing for four or five hours every day. I DO. I don’t miss days or work less than that because I “don’t feel like it” that day. I ALWAYS feel like it.
But then…just…stuff happens. And I don’t know why. And it gets intensely frustrating.
So that’s what I want to do. I want to figure out ways to overcome those blocks we have, and teach that to other people, so that everyone out there can get a little bit closer to their full potential.
There is one thing I’ve been good about recently, and that’s writing every day. And when I write, I stream it on Twitch.
So I guess I AM creating video content every day, it’s just not video content like this. Which I LIKE to create. Which is why Vloganovel doesn’t handle my frustration.
But if you do want a place where you CAN hang out with me every day, I’ll put the Twitch channel in the description.
Also, I’m going to stop doing Patreon mentions at the end of every single show. I’ll probably mention it once or twice a week. But, if you’ve never clicked through to Patreon before, can I ask that you check it out?
Because Patreon is going to be the thing that gets this YouTube channel to the point where I CAN make sure it’s consistent and releases every single day.
Right now, ALL the money I receive from Patreon goes to my editor, Hallie, and then I also pay her some more of my own money on top of that.
But she is my partner, not my employee, and that means that as the Patreon grows, her income grows, too. And that enables both of us to be more consistent in what we do.
So yeah. There’s that. I’m going to try to record another video for you tomorrow. And we’ll see how that goes. It might happen. It might not.
But either way, I thank you very much for watching. And I hope to see you around soon. Take care of yourselves, Rebels. Byyye.